I FINALLY went for service today. I was praise sunday today so there wasn't a sermon. I was there with 2 of my sunday school kids, Jaslyn and Jerilyn. They're sisters. Jaslyn's deaf but jerilyn is normal. We (szeling and i) were sitting in with them for service. Know how service always makes you reflect and think? I made me do just that today.

As i was seated down, observing Jaslyn, she was signing the words of the songs they were singing. I felt so heavy hearted. The music was resounding through the hall. Hands were clapping, voices drowning all tiredness, feet were dancing, the atmosphere was exuberant, refreshed, jaslyn couldn't hear it, but she loved God all the same. I felt so shamed. Here i am, with all my senses fully functional (i think), and yet i complain that i don't get enough. I'm always complaining that i'm fat and ugly (which sometimes really is undeniable) when children i teach are intellectually disabled or deaf. Yes. I am ugly. Next to them i really am. They're younger than me, some even half my age, they look at me with their innocence not being able to outwardly express their feelings cause people don't understand them, and i feel ugly. Cause i have family who loves me, friends who care of me, i see beutiful colours, i hear the chirping of birds, i have an active mind and i still complain when children around me are not able to enjoy life to it's fullest. Greed. It's human nature, a vicious vice that steals happiness away, leaving you coveting more and more, leaving you souless, spritless. I wish i could do more for these children.

It's funny how it's only times like this that makes you realize how lucky you are. I think a person is defined by the people they mix with. For example, if you hang out with a bunch of obnoxious snobs, you're likely to be one too. If you spend alot of time with people who are really good natured, you're likely to have a softer, more defined character, often more likable. I'm so lucky to have great friends who aren't in any way obnoxious. Life really is good to me, but why do i have to work in tuas? WHY? It just isn't fair! *ahem* As i was saying, indeed, life is good. *grumbles...* Tuas you know, tuas is the end of all civilization. I get paid less than a banglah worker, and i work in tuas.........

Anyway. I FINALLY watched a movie today. Head in the Clouds. Charlize Theron is so pretty, penelope cruz is so unpretty. I can't believe tom cruise broke up with nicole kidman for her, she's really so unpretty. But the show was good. Artistic. It's about love, war, loyalty and betrayal. I think betrayal is one of the worst feelings on earth. I would know. And i also think that being misunderstood is a terrible situation to be in. Why must things always be so complex? Why can't people just all love each other and be happy. Just stay loyal and treat people the way you want to be treated, won't the world be a happier place?? Oh, and they really should make people work in tuas too, it isn't very nice. Especially if they get paid less than banglah workers.

Oh oh! Let me tell you what i bought today. I bought a mickey mouse tee shirt! I've been looking for one of those (not the parsa malam kind ok) for the longest time. Don't ask me why i didn't get any in disneyland when i was there, it's a long story. And i bought garfield's pooky! Know his teddy bear?? The really cute one??? Haha! I got it! The last time i saw it, it was sold in a set for 70 bucks. But this store allowed me to get it alone! So i did! I'm so elated! Been looking for pooky since the movie came out. Hee hee hee. I spent my own money, my hard earned pay, so yeh, i think for me, it means alot, cause it's my very 1st pay check. It's miserable, but i earned it on my own. That's seconday anyway... i bought pooky! Do you have?????? I have!! Try buying him. you prolly can't! Haha.

I decided that saturday's are my favourite days now. One reason is cause i get to sleep in and not have to work... yet. Also cause so far, since i started working, which really isn't very long but yet seems like eternity, i've been going out with him. It's been great so far, i always enjoy myself when out with him. It's very comfortable and secure. It's not particularly romantic, it's not supposed to be, but yeh, i enjoy it. I don't know if he feels the same, actually i don't think it matters cause i'm glad where we are right now. I will not be greedy. Just live in the moment.

I hope jac reads this. Babe!!! I'm feeling highly neglected and forgotten!! I haven't heard from you properly since you left. I haven't been able to get through to you, and you haven't called nor sms! I miss you...... do you miss me????? Your best friend is being ill treated in the desolate ruins of tuas!

Another person i really have to shout out to is Alvin. Sorry dude. I know i've been neglecting you. I'm really sorry. Really. I am. I've just been really tired and i mostly hit the sack as soon as i get home. I hope you understand. Call me earlier next time ok? Like about 6pm would be good. Or at about 7am is good too. Sorry. But i haven't forgotten about you. Really.

Then there's Ali. Dude! I can't believe you're flying next monday! Who da heck flies on monday! I'm so going to miss you! We've known each other awhile huh. Can't believe it's been so quick. Ali's going to vietnam for attachment, and he's leaving on the 8th, so yeh. I'm sooooooooo going to miss you! Better sms me before you leave and talk to me online when you're there! And bring me back something nice. Haha.

Yeh, dennis too. COME BACK SOON ok! We've got to chill together soon, before i start getting reallt crazy working hours, then you'll never see me. Haven't spoken to you all that much this time round and yes, i miss it. But what to do, people got girlfriend already like that wan larh. Haha Used to it by now. How many times i've been throught his routine. Not the point. Yeh dearie. come back soon k?

Ok. Complain about work now. 1stly. I FREAKING HAVE TO GO TO WORK TOMORROW! Shit. I'm starting to really not like my supervisor. She started out really nice and all, but now she's becoming really irritating. She's pressurizing us indirectly to work OT. We don't want to work OT cause we're not getting apid to do it, so why should we? And if we do work OT, by the time we reach home is already what time??? Do you know that if i sleep at 10pm, i only get 8 hours of sleep before work? That is hardly enough for me alright. I work like crazy ok. I refuse to work OT. You can't make me. =P

Another really shitty thing. You guys prolly won't see me during christmas or chinese new year. Why? Cause i freaking have to work! How irritating is that huh? I'm getting paid like a miserable 500 bucks, and i have to work public holidays with no extra pay and you still want me to work OT?! They're obviously expoilting me for cheap labour! Know i scrubbed the floor on bended knee that day? I don't even clean my room and in tuas i have to scrub the freaking floor???!!!! I'm not being a snob here, but it's ridiculous! I just feel really expoilted. It's mean. They're mean! *Now's the time to remind me about how lucky i am*.

Ok. I think i will have to go now. I have to do work and it's almost 10. I have to sleep by 10 or i'll never make it tomorrow. Long update huh. Haha. tag board's really quiet. Tag me. Till next time. I'll be in tuas.

Just to let you know that i'm still alive. Barely, but i am. Still in Tuas. NO life. Not enough sleep. Lots of movies to catch this week. NO time. No money. No friend. Can you be my friend? If you can and if you want to be my friend, can you please call me? Cause i have no sense of time and date these days. Everyday the same. So call me up ok guys??? I need you!

TGIF! Come on everybody, say it with me! TGIF! TGIF TGIF! (In case some people don't know, TGIF stands for Thank God It's Friday!) I've waited the ENTIRE week for today. Cause i get to sleep in!! I don't have to go to work! I don't have to wear nto the labawful suits to go into the lab! I can wear makeup, i can wear earrings, i can use my camera phone!!! TGIF!!

Actually, i'm quite regretting my decision to go to sempang for supper, cause i'm feeling really tired, and i'm drving tonight. But i really want to meet up with my hommies. Therefore i shall go and try not to fall asleep. Darn tired.

I finally have stuff to do today at work. In fact, i worked non-stop today, except for lunch. Super tired. I capped 1000 (i'm NOT kidding/exaggerating) testubes today, i also stuffed all of them into the racks, i MADE the racks (they come in "Lego" form), i dispensed the broth into the test tubes, i wrapped 314 spoons for autoclaving today, i made plates of BSA (Blood Sheep Agar), i met with ergonomic demands, carrying things here and there, up and down. That's a whole lot compared to what i've been doing the past days. Was really working non stop. Tired, but, fulfilling. I quite enjoyed it.

The past few days t work, the only thing that kept me busy this week was designing this poster for the company, i spent the rest of my time labelling stuff and reading SOPs. My company has about 1000 SOPs (i'm Not kidding/ exaggerating). Dull. My life is dull. It's dull and it's tiring. Kinda feels like army. NO energy at the end of the day, 7 of us can be on the train together and none of us are talking. We all just sit there and stone. Even Szeling says i'm frazzled. Damn tired larh.

Ok, enough complaining, lets talk about something else... ehhhh... errrmmm.. uhh.. arh? I have nothing else to tell you. The only thing i think about is sleep. The only place i go to is work. I shall blog less often from now on. I'm depressing.

This is embarrassing. It's 10pm and i'm struggling to stay awake. I've been super tired the past few days. I'm usually out by 10pm. All of us at WYETH are turning into freaks. This is how our conversation went at lunch today. " Wah lao, i'm damn tired." "What time did you sleep?" "About 12.....?" "WHAT?! Why so late? what were you doing?" Then, everyone turns to look at each other... "eeerrrr... this sounds abit wrong arh..." See. We're pathetic. We talk about the canteen food cause it's our only source of entertainment. We're freaks. We all admit it.

Was just looking at the photo on my blog. I miss my hommies! I'm looking forward to the weekend. I need to rest. Wanna rest with me? let me know!

I am tired and depressed. This is going to sound really cliched, but know i know how hard it is to earn money, to think i have to go through all this shit for a miserly 500 bucks. I'm telling you now, it's NOT worth it. Knowing that my sis doesn't want to give me allowence just makes everything more shitty. Every morning i have to race to get my ass out of the house and to jurong/boonlay to get to work. Looking less than human doesn't help either. Tuas is the end of all civilization. It really is. It's depressing. It's only the second day of work and i'm EXHAUSTED. I think i've developed a phobia of words. I spent the most of yesterday reading/ filling forms and reading over 100 pages of SOPs (standard operating proceedures). I still have about 10 million more to go and i'm not kidding. It was pure torture. Studying is soooooo nice. I mean studying is exhausting too, it's a different kinda exhaustion.

Today, i had training (classroom lecuture) from 8.30 to 5pm. NO JOKE. I was completely gone at 3pm. Tired like anything. Brain was so fully saturated. I feel like i'm caged up in a really clean prison! This is so not what i want to do in future. I don't ever want to step into the lab after this. It's killing me!!!

Anyway, complainign aside. I know i'm really lucky to be working in WYETH. It's really a very good company. And i will encourage all parents to use WYETH infant formula. I visited or toured rather, the manufacturing and production plant today. EVERYTHING is sterile and maintained at upmost quality. WYETH produces the best infant formula in the world and today i understood why. It was really impressive.

I was really amazed by all the automation and machinery. Now i understand the fear of machines. I'm sure that if one day machines were to take over the world, we'll all be gone. They are so much more intelligent than us. Of course you may say that we're the ones that create machines, but what if one day they develop a life of their own? I stood in awe of the machines today, and i seldom stand in awe.

No, i'm not doing anything mechanical. I'm doing microbiological testing (quality control). Lots of Milk samples will be coming through me. I made a promise to myself not to consume too much milk from now on. Milk is an emulsion. It's made up of protein encapsulated fat. ( just learnt this today) Therefore, by drinking milk, alot of fat is being ingested, and i, certainly cannot afford it.

Sorry, i'm alittle obsessed with milk powder now. Can't help it. Occupational hazzard. But You have no idea how important infant formula is to the child. Or at least, i never knew up till now. I've learnt alot of things in a span of 2 days, i'm enjoying learning, but i'm not inclined to the line of work. I'm really exhuasted for now. Think i'm still not used to it.

I'm really missing my friends. ALL my friends. My social circle is limited to my friends working in WYETH with me. Everyday, we look at each other and stone. Always too tired/ sleepy to talk. We need to get used to things i guess. I need my social life. Bring it back!

I want my make up! I want my earrings! I want my necklace! I want my sleep! I want my car! I want my money! I want my friends! I want my life! Yes. I'm whining. Live with it or don't talk to me. I'm Depressed.

I am so shit tired. I came back from langkawi last evening, and i had to wake up at 5am today to travel down to tuas. It's going to take me 2 hours to get from home to work for the next 5 months. Tuas is the end of civilization. It really is. Let me Complain. I NEED to complain.

Walked into the company today. It's huge. It's pretty new, it looks good. It's a highly confidential area, so every door you wanna open needs to have a card scanned 1st. We walked into the metting room (there are 8 of us in WYETH), sat down and the briefing began. It went pretty well, i had no qualms... UNTIL! Our supervisor said, During your stay here, working in the labs, no make up, no jewelery and no camera phones allowed! !@#$%^&*&^%$#@?????!!!!!! WHAT?! You got yo be kidding me! Do you realise what this means...??? HUH??? Do you...???

Let me tell you. It MEANS, my 10 lip sticks will not see the sun anymore for the next 5 months. I am going to look like the phantom of the opera for the next 5 months. I will not be carrying my darling hp for the next 5 months, i will not be having polished nails for the next 5 months, i will also not be wearing jewelry for the next 5 months. DO YOU FEEL THE PAIN OF IT ALL???!!! To make things worse, i will have a uniform to wear everyday in the lab (i hope it's not a jumpsuit) and shoes too. GREAT! My FRESHLY dyed hair will be up in a ponytail and hairnet everyday for 12 hours. Why don't you just kill me. How can you deprive me of the only think i'm good at and the only thing i live for? STYLE and FASHION!

My life is going to be so dull and mundane. I'll be working in 12 hour shifts, from 7.30 to 7.30. Great huh. I'll have to catch the 1st train to work everyday. haiyah
sian sian sian sian sian!!!! I won't have the time to maintain my friendships for the next 5 months, i'll be too exhausted. I'll be prisoned in the microbiology lab in tuas with no make up for 5 months. Don't i deserve some pity? You guys will jsut have to date me out for dinner/supper, take the initiative, or i promise you will not see me in the next 5 months AT ALL. HAIYARH. Date me out my friends, date me out.

OK. Change topic. I dyed my hair today, and trimmed it alittle. It's dark coloured now. Copper, mahongany kinda colour, redish, brownish. It's pretty nice. Just looks abit weird to me cause i haven't seen my hair dark in about 1 half years (since jean yip messed up my hiar). But then again, what's the use, no one's going to be seeing it since it's going to be in a hairnet for the next 5 months!!! ARGH!!!

Enough of complaining. I'll tell you about my GREAT trip to langkawi.

Was feeling great upon arrival. Our resort looked nice, the room was nice, the weather was nice. Ling and i went to the beachside bar for drinks. The waiters were nice and friendly. We chatted and they served us more drinks than we ordered. Szeling was in a relaxed mood so she was just drinking and drinking despite my dissuation. Then she got really high after our flaming lambhorgini. We decided to go back to the room. We got our drinks free. The waiters said it was on the house. Cool! Haha.

We woke up the next morning to a beatiful sunny day. Threw on out bikinis and went to the pool to soak up the sun. Nice sunny day! Haha. What was more interesting was the SPA!!!

Ling and i went for this Exfoiliation thingy. We were Naked under the towel with our faces in the hole of the bed. The therapist was like massaging the exfoiliation scrub on our naked bodies and i felt thoroughly molested, even my boobies were exfoiliated, i have no idea why. It was such a relaxing activity and not at all sexual. Shiok! Haha. Think szeling was feeling quite weird. She's not much of a nudist. Haha. Then i did something stupid.

My skin was "raw" from the spa. I went trotting down the beach, with NO sun screen on, and spent 3 hours doing water sports. I am now as red as a boiled lobster, and it hurts. BUT! It was darn ol fun! We went para sailing and jet skiing and we went sailing in the Caramaran! Woo hoo! Really enjoyed it. The instructors are so nice and friendly. One of them treated us to a coconut and a tour of the town.

Ok, i know this is going to sound bad, but we took our instrcutor's car down town. He drove us. He even came shopping with us. Nice huh. It felt kinda weird but it was so much more convenient with a local showing us around. Yeh. Didn't manage to show our deep appreciation towards him. He's nice. =) So unlike our typical singaporean behaviour, a refreshing change.

Despite all the fun, i'm gald to be back. Nothing beats my own bed. Hee hee. Well. It's a long entry, thanks for the time! Haha. I'll be blogging less from now. So yeh, try and catch me yes? If not, i'll see you in 5 months. Aideos!

hey all! i'm at changi airport right now in the waiting lounge. Szeling's reading her book, feeling upset that she can't buy her ciggies cause we can't bring them home and it's impossible to smoke 10 packs in 2 days. yep! Pray for good weather for me and miss me in the mean time!!

Oh oh! I just found out that i have friend in WYETH!! Jon Low and Kit are in wyeth too! We can form the tuas gang! Things are looking up! Alittle at least. Heard from szeling that in wyeth, we have to work in shifts, hopefully i won't get the overnight one. I'll be so depressed. Argh! But for now, I'm off to my rest and relaxation! TA!

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I'm going to Langkawi tomorrow!! YAY! I hope the weather's good! I'll so totally cry if it isn't. However, i am feeling impeccably fat and ugly. Not very bikini friendly. Maybe i'll just sit under the coconut tree and and pray really hard that i'll get tanned in the shade. I don't want to be held responsible for an oil spill on the beach. OOOHHHH.. can't wait can't wait. Wanna go on a holiday!!!

Know right, on saturday, i went over to Ling's house to veg out in front of the TV. We were watching sex and the city. It lead me to think.. " are all men freaks?" In fact.. "are we all freaks?" Do we each have a freak inside us that unconsiously surfaces? That it's apparent to everyone else besides ourselves? My "freakness" is worry and paranoia. I'm a paranoid worrywart. I drive people crazy with my freakiness. How about you? What is your inner freakiness??? Share it. Tag it!

Then there's this other question i was pondering on. "What constitutes cheating?" I suppose everyone would have a different answer to this. For me, cheating is kissing. Kissing as in snogging or making out. A pash is fine. I think i'll be cool if my boyfriend is chummy with another girl, as long as i'm aware of it. I'll definately blow my top if i had to catch him. I hate not knowing. I hate being lied to and hidden from. Just tell me. I can handle it! What do you think? Tag it!

Szeling brought to my attention a "lesson" from the show. "Am i in love with him? Or, am i addicted to the pain of wanting something so out of reach?" Interesting isn't it? There often are times where you tell yourself that he's a twit and he should just throw himself of a building and stop torturing you. But, you find, when he call out your name, you just come running, no matter how far you are, no matter how angry you are. Why is that? I think it's the hope that he/she would suddenly wake up in realisation. At least that's what i hope for. Maybe part of you just wants him/her to feel guilty for hurting you. What do you think? Tag it!

Sex And the City also reminds me constantly that friends are the key to revival. Through bad relationships, bad shoes, bad clothes, bad dates, bad movies, bad hair days, bad decisions, they're the ones that will stand by you and pull you through. I can vouch for that. Some friends will inevitabally distance and fade away. But you will form a core inner circle or square or pentagon of friends who can count on no matter what happens. I know who my few are and i'm so thankful. I can see myself, 10 years down the line, sitting down, having coffee and a chocolate cake and complaining about nitty gritties to my core circle. It's comforting to know that there are some friends who will always be there.

Funny that how when you enter a new phase in your life, you think about life's mosiacs. Like mosiac, fragments of brokeness are put together to create a complete picture. It's so apt because the cracks and fractures are displayed together with the picture. Just like how brokeness completes a person. I suppose it's only with the flaws that true beauty is magnified. Like how a plain jane is so beautiful when put beside a disfigured face.

I don't know why i'm talking about all this, or the point of this. Just have random things running through my mind. Perhaps i haven't found my life's "plain jane". All i am is the cracks and fractures. Most of the time i sound unhappy. I'm not. I reckon i'm just bitter and spiteful and cynical. It's sad to be like i am at my age. I've not even seen the outside world and i'm already so cynical. Know how they say a person's inner being is reflected on his face? Maybe that's why i get uglier. Compare pictures and the truth surfaces. Don't say i'm not, cause i see it myself. I want to find my happiness. I really do, but where is it? Give me a clue.

Ok, my blog is cocked up, therefore i do not know if this entry will get published cause the previous one didnt. I will try.

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! Yay!!!! I'm so glad. I'm done with exams! Until uni that is, but you see, that cuts down on a reasonable amount of studying and that in itself is a good thing. Let the world rejoice! dawn has no more exams! "ole ole ole ole... ole.. ole..." "that's the way uh huh uh huh... i like it uh huh uh huh." My papers were OK. Not great, but i don't think i'll fail, except maybe Animal disease. Shit. Oh well, enjoy in the meantime, don't think so much.

There's one thing that's really bugging me though. I haven't gotten over it yet, my tuas posting!!! ARGH! Of all the FAR, i get the FARTHER-EST! Nevermind, at least i got friend. But TUAS!!! Everyday go JB for lunch. By the time i get back to main island already what time?! Where got time for my friends? Haiyah... sian.

I shall look forward to my trip to Langkawi with Ling this monday. I hope the sun's good. Wanna get a tan! I'll be seriously depressed if i fail to get one, that time in bintan, fail. If this time also fail, i think i'm just fated to be white for the rest of my life. That is rather sad. Like what szeling said, i'll be bai bai pang pang! The tragedy! WOE IS ME!

Anyway right, i really must mention that the agent that is "helping" Ling and I arrange the trip is REALLY inefficient!! I hate inefficient service! See right, we ALREADY paid the deposit, and the tax invoice was given to us, stating that the deposit was for the tickets and the hotel. THEN! She called like a FEW DAYS later to tell ling that our hotel was booked out. WTF?! Then what on earth did we pay the deposit for? HUH?! Nincompoop!

So, i spent every waking moment bugging ling to call the agent. Which she did just to entertain me. Then, we only had our hotel confirmed TODAY! 3 Days before our trip! How irritating is that?! I can't stand it! If it were me, i'd demand that they give me a discount! HOW INEFFICIENT! Hello! The most important things on a trip are the flight and accomodation! Shithead.

Know what, i'm actually feeling quite lost, with no work to be done. Haha. Tis a gud feeling... as kiwi would say.. "GAN jue arh!... FEEL." Haha. He'll be going to Taman tomorrow with Fenny. Bet they'll have a blast! Don't worry fenny, Ling and I will think of you when we're in Langkawi!! In the meantime, help me pester kiwi to buy me the 35 carat diamond! *drool* Haha. Alden, 4k and selwin are off to redang on a 9 hour coach ride on sunday which i refused to participate in. 9 HOURS! Are you crazy?! But it'll be fun i'm sure, snorkelling and all that. MMz. It's ok, me and ling will be getting away too. Yay! so exciting!

I was talking to alden on the phone last night. I really miss him. Miss all the fun times we had. We had lots of fun and laughter shared between us, and it was great. Everytime i speak to him on the phone, i feel so radiant, cause he accepts me for my flaws and ugliness i have displayed infront of him. Although i always say that he is a jerk and a shithead and a cha tao, i know that he treats me well. He cares for me in his own subtle insensitive way. But everytime he expresses it, i glow. I love it! haha. But no, i'm done with alden. I've moved on. BUT THEN! I just can't help be remember the time i spent with him in the library studying for Histo last time, it's priceless. Of course the time i spent in his embrace will be treasured as a bitter sweet memory. Alden.. alden. What am i to do.

11pm! OC! OC! Talk to you later!!! see ya!

Right. See. Here's the thing. I am supposed to be studying for my surgical paper right this minute cause i'm lagging, but i just finished the anaesthetic part of the subject and am feeling bored and unaccomplished. Therefore i'm going to rest my brains alittle and do some blogging. Hmm. My nails are nice and maicured. hee hee. They look great. Love looking at them. Hah.

It's been a truely depressing week and yet it is only monday. It all began on friday, the day when my bad karma got back at me. Animal disease paper was terrible! I made a complete mess out of the paper! I think i never walked out of an exam room feeling so forlorn (excpe maybe last time when i took maths)! I didn't know how to answer a single question! Can you sense my grief?! I decided to give up when i ran out of "intelligent bullshit" to put on that paper. I walked out of the room and sat outside the LT to gireve. I called nat and we went to pig out! I needed a remedy for my depression.

It's been a long time since nat and i went out, much less pigged out. Our capacities have really decreased! Not that that is entirely a bad thing, but we used to have so much fun just eating and eating and eating. We would eat like non stop for far east to PS. *burp* Those days were just fun! I was starting to feel abit better when....

Joel smsed to tell me about his attachment. He got me all hyped up about my posting, so i called home to ask my sis to check for my posting letter. Then, i got all depressed again.

Anyone wants me to bring them free milk powder samples just let me know. I'll be working with WYETH Nutritionals Singapore Ptd Ltd. If you were so free to check it up online, you will realise that the company is in TUAS. Yes, i would appreciate your sympathy. So. From 18th october onwards, i am only free to meet for LATE dinners and suppers. Please accommodate me, i'm working in TUAS. In case you're wondering why i mentioned milk powder, it's because WYETH produces the milk powder "Progress" for babies. Yarh. Argh. TUAS. GREAT. How lucky can i get.

It's the 1st day of the week and i already feel drained of all body juices. My genetics paper today was bad too. 10 marks down the drain. Wrote the complete wrong thing. I got confused with all the techniques and hence messed the question up. I just hope i manage to pass. I don't ask for much. Just let me pass! Stupid Dr chang. Set such a shitty paper. I shall not buy him prata anymore! I hate genetics.

Feeling like shit, i just came home and slept through the afternoon when i was supposed to wake up to study. I was so tired that when Aileen came into my room, i didn't even know. Usually i would be woken up and would yell at her for disturbing me. Haha. I'm left with my surgery part of the syllabus to study for the exam tomorrow. It's quite alot, but i'm sure i'll manage. Just don't sleep. Yeh right, if only i were like Fabian or Kiwi and Esther. No need to sleep also can survive. Envious man.

Actually, i was thinking about my friends in poly. I mean afterall, poly is coming to an end in a span of 5 days. I thought about my friendship with sharon and about all the fun times we had. About Yazid and charlotte. We all used to hang out together and we always had a blast! About alden and about how despite all the shit we're still alittle dependant on each other and how we can talk about anything under the sun for hours on end. Then of course there's my dearestest Szeling whom i cannot function without, and my inner square who "took me in" when i had no friend last semester. Then there's Don, whom i've grown close to, spent so much time togther watching movies and playing pool and even studying. Thank goodness i had these people to share my poly life with, to make it less agonising and easier to get by. I don't remember much from my classes, but i'll surely remember my friends. Some of which i know will last longer than others.

Of course there's my Clique, Nat, Jac, Sharon whom i've been so close to in my secondary school days. The bond that we all shared is subtle but strong. I couldn't have come so far so sanely if i didn't have my clique. They were there to pull me out of both my "darren and alden misery". They were the ones i spent my "lets go to sentosa" days with, the ones that understand me through and through. Yeh. They're great. I miss my clique. We're so great together, we rocked the school man!

Oh well. As we get older, we come to realise that actually the most important things in life are those people around you who love you. They are the ones who bring you happiness and comfort that no other thing can give. Trust me, i know. Entering yet another phase in my life, i am again reminded of how i should look around and appreciate the people who have supported me through all my misgivings and misery and i am thankful and grateful that God placed them so strategically in my life to pull me though, no matter how fat and heavy i am.

Alright, before i get even more sappy, i should get back to my notes. Argh! The aim is to sleep by 3am! It is now 12.40am. Wish me luck!