Is it possible to fall in love with a memory? I think it is. I think i've been in love with the memory of Mr Big.

Been a good few days. =)


Carl's Jr burgers!!! They're horribly delicious and horribly expensive as well. $7 just for the burger! It was worth every penny though. Yummy!!

Friday. I went to the newly renovated Marina square for dinner with an old friend, Jane. For those of you who don't know yet, Marina square has openned and it's HUGE! I got lost in there. It is still however, very out of the way. There's really much to eat, so you can just pop over and i'm sure you'll find something you fancy. Like Carl's Jr!! We went all the way just to eat the burgers and man was it crowded. The Burgers are good. I highly recommend the BBQ turkey bacon burger. It's yummilicious. I had it in the States and it's just as good here! So go try it. Hee hee. Don't order the chilli fries though, they're not fantastic.

I finally finally got to catch the Fantastic 4. I thought it's be better. *shrugz* Watched it in Marina. It's the 1st time i caught a show there. Suaku right? I still like cathy orchard the best, and Ken has influenced me to like GV Grand. Anyway right, when i was watching all the ads before the movie, i realised that they had all changed!!!!! I know it's no big deal, but last time when i watched movies, the intervals were never long enough for the ads to change man!!! I HAVE NO LIFE. But then again, i can't help it if all my movie kahkis are in the Land of Botaks. *grumbles*


Me and Janey! Ain't she pretty? Ain't i fat? Been a LONG time.

On Saturday, i found myself back in Marina. Went to watch movie with Kit and Fiona. I've never been out in this combination before, but it was nice. =) Had lotsa laughs. Watched The Island. It's good *nods head vigorously*. You should so definately catch it. Though i think Ewan Mcgreggor looks pretty bad in this show. He looks gwaky. But he's gorgeous. *Beams*

Dbl O at night, with Ken and Arnold. Weird combination too i know. Haha. saturday was Wyeth people day, first it was Fiona and kit, then it's Ken and Arnold. Haha. It was retro night, but the music they played was quite shitty this time. All the good songs didn't come up. But we danced anyway. It felt nice to be un-inhibited and just be crazy and let loose. even though i must have looked really stupid cause i was mambo-ing. (Shit. I've turned into one of them!!!!) Even though i don't know how to mambo. Haha. Just the basics.

I love being in the company of Ken. He somehow has this way of making me feel really doted on and cared for. He really makes me happy. We never run out of things to say, and he's one person that really appreciates my opinion and views. Ken can talk me into doing anything because somehow i know that if i follow what he says, i won't go wrong. He's kinda like a mentor. It helps cause he's older and so wise. I like listening to his "ren shen da dao li's" Haha. Though i sometimes disagree with him, then we'd have discussions. It's cool. Of course, most of the time we don't really have conversations cause we're clubbing or we're in the movies. When Ken says "lets go watch movie", it literally means watch movie. Meet just in time for movie, go home str8 after. Haha. But everytime we meet, he'll ask me... "how're you going home?" Which is a dumb question, cause by the time we go home there's like NO mode of transport besides taxi. Then he'll ask... "you got money?" So sweet right? Ken's great. I'm so blessed to have met him. =)


Fiona, me and Kit. Fiona always looks so pretty and Kit's a Chao recruit. Can you tell..? Haha.

Ok. Just leave you with some pictures of graduation. As i said. You may call me Royal Fatness.


Me, Ling and Fenny. Szeling looked super great that day. *winkz*


Jac jac came down for hugs and pictures! Stunning every Male organism along the way as usual.


About 1/3 of the Jiuguis. From left: Lennart, Russell, Royal Fatness, Ling and Royston.


The Wyeth Peeps. From left: Kit, Jon, Zhiyong, Guowei, Wallace, Debiao, Me, Mark and Fiona


Me and the Bronze medalist. Ang Kian Wee, diploma with merit. Was so proud of him that day. I would have given him the Gold medal cause i think he truely deserved it. To me, he was the best in my course.


My babe and her baby. Haha. Ling's so pretty. =)





Me, papa and jie jie!

That's all folks!

Spent a good 8 hours in town today with my babe Szeling. Been a long time and i remember why i miss it so much. Hee. We managed to run errands today and get some shooping done, which is always a good thing. Hee hee hee. However, for the next 2 weeks, i will be wallet-less. I've sent my wallet for washing. Have you seen the SAD state it is in. It's so dirty that the dry cleaning lady exclaimed.." Wah! So dirty arh your wallet!" Not my fault what. My wallet is white and is more than a year old. Sure dirty right?! Chey. Dirty then wash what. Not dirty wash for what? Chey.

It's kinda strange how we mellowed down. Taking life more seriously now. Guess we've come to a point in our lives where we have to make decisions for ourselves now and suffer the consequences of them. Be it single or attached, the people around us have influenced us so much that we learn to be more understanding and more considerate. I'm just wondering how come it only influences us and not them as well? *shrugz* Maybe it's just me and my HIGHLY dysfunctional relationships. I don't know why i always kena. Super shitty larh! Ah whatever. I have my babes and that's enough for me. =)

Szeling says i look "healthy". Haha. Whatever that means? Must be because i quit my job and am starting to look more like a human being now and not like the living dead. It's good to have a new look yeh? Haha. However, i thinking to look "healthier" I shall need to lose some weight. Szeling said something like "royal fatness" today and as amusing as it sounds, i think i deserve that title. Wah lao! Like how fat larh!! Talk about new looks. I'm in a phase. I'm into girly tops recently. I think i've been influenced by jac or something. I suddenly miss the days where i'd wear spags and halters and actually look decent in them. Now i just look like a hippopotamus in a tutu. =( But seriously though. I need more interesting clothes, always jeans an tee... time to dress up alittle maybe? (szeling must be really happy now, cause she's been persuading me to buy nice clothes for the longest time.)


Went to Eski Bar on Saturday. If you're wondering why we look so strange, it's because our smiles are FROZEN! Just like our noses were. It really was cold, -1 degrees can?! Yes. I AM FAT. You may call me Royal fatness from now on.


Me and ling looking all nice and pao. Who votes that my face is bigger? TAG it! Seriously.


Yes. This is the Bar of the coldest section of eski. I promise your beer will not become warm. It really is ice.

Anyway, feeling rather tired now... shall go catch up with mr sandman. Wanna be my friend over the weekend? Let me know!!! OH! CONGRATS LP FOR PASSING YOUR DRIVING!! Drive me around sometime. I wanna sit in the passenger seat! hee hee.

It feels nice to be asleep on a rainy day under the covers, no reason to wake up early, nothing important to do. Just lounge around the house the whole day, eating what i want, when i want, and lying in bed whenever i want whether i'm tired or not. It's nice not having anything important to do, but it also makes you very lethargic and unenthusiatic. I can't help thinking what i'd be doing if i were working. Such is human nature. But i'm glad i quit. Although it means no more money. Then again, not as if i was earning alot there. Chey.







Been thinking alittle. Been missing him alittle. Been frustrated alittle. But it's all good. what can i say? Obviously and absolutely nothing.

If i had a choice, i don't want to grow up. Making choices, making decisions, suffering the consequences, doesn't anybody get scared of taking another step?

Work vs School. The grass was never greener on the other side for me. I never thought work was better than school. Maybe that's cause i'm lucky and i never had a short of money. I'm not the richest kid on the block but i definately have more than enough and i am so blessed in that area. I hate my job. It's a torture to go to work everyday to face hypocritical bosses, un-trustworthy colleagues and be in the constant state of awareness of speach. It's just not a place for me to work. I am an expressive, vocal, cynical, opinionated, free thinking individual. I cannot tolerate people telling me what i should say and what i should think. I am a considerate and tactful individual and i do not need you to teach me how to live my life. You're only my bosses, and you're under paying me, so why should i even bother. The only reason why i'm working is to stop the constant nagging at home. Everytime money issues come up i get so irritated. I have never asked for anything, and that's all you have ever given me so quit yapping already.

I'm going to quit my job very soon. I cannot stand to be made seem incompetent. I may not be the brightest person around, but i work hard. When i work, i really work. When i'm at work, i dedicate all my energy and attention to my work and i strive to produce results. I refuse to seem incompetent, because i am not and i'm not going to take it from them. See. this is the difference between working in science and working in retail. In my industry, you'll never be made seem incompetent because they know you have what it takes, that's why they hire you. That's the whole point of interviews right? During interviews, you have to assess the individual to the best of your ability and then decide if they're right for the job. How many employees have left Royce unhappy? How many days have i been happy working at Royce? It says something no? I hate working under people who are self righteous and conceited. There is no respect between individuals and that makes the team a failure. I cannot be part of a team that has low morale. No way. I thought about it over the past few days, and i think i'll work till august if i can tahan, if not, i'll leave this month.

They are the 1st of all the people i've met in my life that has ACCUSED me of being rude and disrespectful. What a load of bullshit. Dawn Bak Jing Ting will NEVER be rude and disrespectful under any circumstance. My mummy has taught me well and i have never, and will never be rude and disrespectful. I have better values than that. They should appreciate me for the good service i provide their customers and the extra sales i've brought in. But no. They accuse me. This is one job i'm NOT going to miss. It sucks big time.

I just want to spend the rest of my time enjoying life for what it is. I haven't done that in a while. I've been too busy being sad and unhappy and being lead around the mulburry blindly. I need to be happy for once in a long time. I need to stop being a frustrated individual. I don't know exactly what i want to do. I just want to go away from here for a while. Leave everything and everybody for awhile and go on a long relaxing holiday. I want to wake up from a coma and find myself in a place and time where i was happiest.

I'm not going into depressed mode again. I'm just really frustrated with work. I really want to leave. But if i leave, the nagging is going to start all over again. Febuary, please come soon. I want to go back to school. So sick of life here, it just keeps getting better. Argh!!!!!

I read this article in one of my usual trashy magazines... it's quite interesting. Have a look.

Ten Friends That Every Woman Needs. (by Dr Jan Yager)

Research has found that having even one close or best friend can improve and extend your life. But we all need more than just one friend in case a friend moves away or is busy. As a 23 year old producer points out: "Sometimes i feel like my friends don't always have time for me, so i would like more friends."

A friend is defined as someone you are not related to by either birth or by marriage, nor do legal ties bind you. Most social scientists agree that friendship excludes romance or sexual intimacy, or it has become something other than friendship. *ahem ahem*

Based on the 25 years i've been studying friendship, here is my list of the 10 friends that every woman needs. It need not be 10 separate individuals, some friend categories might overlap, such as The Realist, who is also a Close Friend and a Same-Sex Friend, or The Nurturer, wh is also a Best Friend.

1. The Casual Friend
A casual friend is someone you like and who likes you, but the friendship is far from intimate. In contrast to aquaintances or those with whom you merely network, there is a connection with a casual friend, but just information and activities are shared. This is the easiest friendship to maintain. Some casual friendships may deeoen and become close or a best friendship.

2. The Close Friend
In defining a close friend, 25 year old Sonia notes: "If i am able to be myself and they feel comfortable to be themselves around me, no matter what the situation is." You confide your private thoughts or feelings with a close friend without fear of repercussions because there is a mutual trust that confidences will not be shared. Unlike "the one" best friend, it is perfectly acceptable to have several close friends.

3. The Best Friend
Like a close friend, the best friend is elevated to a high level of intimacy, but there is an assumption of exclusivity (although some report having more than one best friend, especially if the best friends live far apart). A best friend may be harder to maintain after marriage. However, as long as boundaries are respected- the best friends do not form allegiances that threaten marital or familial loyalties- women of all ages may still benefit from having a best friend.

4. Same-Sex Friend
A same-sex friend helps you to validate or challenge your own perspectives and to be able to share about experiences along gender lines. Friends of the same sex, usually have a commonality about some experiences, such as issues related to fashion, career, romantic relationships, or childbearing.

5. Opposite-Sex Friend
Fortunately, it is no longer immediately assumed that an opposite-sex friendship has to be something more. Since research has found that female friendships tend to be more intimate than male friendships, having an opposite-sex friend provides each gender with the chance to take a break from those gender-specific ways of connecting. In that way, a woman could have friendships with men that are more activity oriented (and the male friends could find themselves more confortable opening up emotionally to their female friends).

6. The Nostalgia Friend
You grew up together, went to school together, or once worked together. If possible, continue cultivatingat least one nostalgic friend to help you to have continuity in your life, especially if you are still single and unattached. A nostalgia friend reminds you of where you've been as a way of reaffirming how far you've traveled in life.

7. The Role model
This is a friend who helps you go to the next level, whether she's better at hair styling than you are or works harder, or has somehow managed to find the right balance in her life among her career, romantic, childcare, and friendship pulls and choices.

8. The Motivator
When you're feeling defeated or overwhelmed, the motivator brings you way up, as she inspires you, and inspires you to keep trying.

9. The Realist
This friend doesn't put you down, but she does temper your enthusiasm and wild plans with welcome and well meaning realism. She's the one who reminds you that going back to school is a great idea, but she also reminds you that you'll need to pay for it somehow.

10. The Nurturer
"She is there for me", notes a 21 year old Texan event planner. Her friend is a nurturer, the one who offers her help, if you want to take it. She doesn't just point you in the right direction for help. Even more importantly, she supports you emotionally by empathizing with your joys or sadness on such a deep level that it helps you to feel safer and stronger.

Yes, we need these ten friends in our lives but we also need to be providing these characteristics to our friends. How many casual, close or best friends have you nurtured lately?

I'm lucky to have all these 10 friends. I just hope i have been at least 1 out of 10 of the above. Thank God for blessing me with such great friends. What would i do without them?

Work is getting to me. Everyday i come home feeling like i've broken my back, neck and legs. It honestly is painful. But what to do? This is part of my job. STANDING and bending. It sucks to be tall sometimes.

Work's been kinda stressful and kinda tiring so far. I guess i'm still not used to it. There's so much to be done but yet i feel bored. The only time i don't feel bored is when i'm serving customers. But when they want their chocolates to be gift wrapped, i get stressed, cause too many at one time is just overwhelming and it's not nice to keep customers waiting. I think i'm a pretty good promoter. Hahaha. Thick skinned or what yarh? But seriously. I think i provide pretty good service and give good recommendations. I'm proud of our products so i sell them pretty well. Managed to get customers to buy more than what they usually get. Introduce them other chocolates rather than the ones they're used to. Customers always come in to buy the same kind of chocolate.. our Narma chocolate. It's the yummiest! If you've ever tried it. If you haven't, come down to the shop! I'll offer you a sample. Haha.

Besides work, i haven't been doing anthing. except maybe catch a movie with Ling. Alot Like Love. It was nice and sappy. I like. Haha. Ashton cutcher had like longish floppy hair in the show and he kept tucking it behind his ears.... like ewwww!! I hate guys with long hair. I hate guys who have floppy hair and i hate guys who tuck their hair behind their ears!!! Gross! that's so secondary school.

Talk about secondary school... my sec 2 chinese teacher walked into my shop today. Haha. I served her and she said i changed so much. Then i said... "yeh. i hope so. it's been 6 years, it'll be quite sad if i still look the same." Of course i said it in perfect broken chinese. Haha. I suddenly remembered the time where Vanessa, Laine, Jac ng and i would bully her in chinese class and drive her so completely up the wall. Haha. I started grinning to myself. We were soooo naughty! Haha.

One thing about working in retail, you get to see and witness so many kinds of people. I realised that the youngsters are the ones that are harder to serve cause they're shy. The working class guys are the nicest! Hahaha. I really enjoy serving the customers larh. It's the best part of the job when you see the customer's face light up after trying our chocolate, or when you manage to sell them chocolate when they didn't have the intention of buying any in the 1st place. Hee.

If i'm sounding like i like my job. You're mistaken. I don't. I'm just trying to make the most out of it. Don't know if i can stay at it for long. I'm so tired. And i think i have more imprtant things to think about. I got accepted to La Trobe University as well. Same course. Occupational therapy. Got to weigh the pros and cons. Argh!

Oh. By the way. Alden's attached to one of the most unlikely candidates. I almost threw myself out the car when i heard. It was too shocking. Now he seems like he doesn't want to talk to me. Haha. Nvm. He's got his GF. Somebody save me from the depressing singlehood!!!

It does NOT help that my shop faces World of Golf. Pui.

It's my off day tomorrow! (saturday) Yay!!!!!!!!!! Well derserved break.