It is a VERY lazy Monday. I am RATHER sleepy. But then again i know i deserve it. Who ask me to stay out so late when i know i have to go to work the next day. Can't help it also what... the weather is like totally shiok to sleep larh! It's windy and the sky is grey and it's raining. PERFECT for sleeping in. Unfortunately, poor souls like me and Meiqi have to go to work. Fortunatel people such as szeling is in brisbane on holiday, kiwi is in genting for a short trip, Fenny is off today. SIAN!

i REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO ON HOLIDAY!!! Alas, there is no time, there is also no money and there is also no friend. I hate the government. They have enslaved my friends to the cruel elements of national service. I don't even have a friend to watch movies with. Totally sian to the CORE.

Tomorrow is a public holiday, but i have to go down to the shop to work. We're completely short handed. Does anyone know anyone who wants to do full time sales?? We seriously need help. My boss is overworked and she's preggers, very shorthanded, so if you know anyone, please please please refer. We're dying!

Anyway, going to mambo on Wednesday!!!!! YAY! Can't wait can't wait. Been itchy for such a long time!!! Who'd ever thought i'd enjoy mambo. Weird huh. Probably one of my last few mambos before i fly to Perth.

Alrighty, i think i have nothing to sa. My life is dull and mundane and bland. Should i type my resignation letter now? Hmmm... I feel like i want to leave like right now and go home to sleep. Haiz. Such is the life of an over worked and underpaid marketing executive. Damn it.

I is bored. I is so bored that i have resorted to blogging. I is actually have so many things to do. But i is need boss approval before i is do anything. Boss is not free. Therefore i is very bored.

Ling is going to Brisbane is a couple of hours. I is no friend. Sian larh. Wanna quit my job also cannot. Been writing paragrahs for our media kit, hopefully things will be a success. I miss writing, but i also know that my writing is not now what it was before. Lack of practice really shows huh. BAD.

Let me tell you how truely sad, idiotic and loserish i am. After wearing contact lenses for about 4 years right, i cut my finger rather deeply this morning while opening a new container of contact lenses. Stupid or not? Then it was bleeding and bleeding and i was thinking that no one can possible as sad as me larh. I tell you, i will mark the EPITOME of SAD if i fall asleep while clubbing larh. If that really happens, i will dig a giant hole and bury myself and never come out again.

Something really shitty dawned on me yesterday while i was driving home from work. I realised i prolly won't be seeing Big for almost the entire month of november.

See uh... Starting from this week (we're counting saturdays ok.):

29th October: No plans what so ever (with him that is) because my babe is going on a holiday with her baby! NO FAIR! I also want to go on a holiday and i also want to spend 2 whole weeks with my darling!

5th November: Big's going to be away (as in not in Singapore) and i'll be working cause it's Face Shop's 1st birthday. Damn it.

12th November: Working. Face Shop's re- opening at Plaza Singapura. Damn it.

19th November: Ling's birthday celebration. MAYBE got chance.

26th November: Working. Face Shop media launch at Wisma Atria

3rd December: Dawn would have quit her job

SEE!!!!!! Won't get to see Big the whole of November! I'm just so going to suffer from withdrawal syptoms. The after november, only left 2 months before i go and study. How shit larh! I HATE the government. We're supposed to catch Harry Potter together but i don't know how we're going to manage that now. SQUEEZE time out.

Aiyarh. I also don't know why i'm missing him more than usual, maybe cause i'm hormonal and i'm starting to hate my job. Now i understand why my jie always want to change job. Pui. Study... Study is good. I should pack myself in a box and ship myself off to Oz. I think i'm killing everybody wih my neurosism. Shit.

I'm dying of mundaness.

This is the song playing in my head right now. Totally love this song. He loves it too. =)

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears 'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here Only almost here

Dennis says it's time to use my blog cause there are cobwebs. It's not my fault that i have 10 million things to do in the office what... Chey. Haha. No larh, i don't really have 10 million things to do. Maybe just about 5 million.

Things have just been busy busy busy. I also don't know why i don't seem to accomplish very much but i'm always so busy. weird. But it's just so nice to see The Face Shop growing and prospering, i feel very "part of the family" even though i always say i wanna quit my job because i just always get so tired.

Anyway, about this whole uni thing, i'll be leaving in Feb i suppose, will have to stay in hostel for an entire year. Sucks. I don't like sharing bathrooms and i'm anti-social. Totally NOT the hostel sort. But what to do? Got to make some friends. Just for Dennis' info, Dennis... i kinda booked George James Hostel, my dad prefered it. So yeh lorh. That's where i'll be if i do get a room.

This whole leaving thing is getting to me. Time is passing so quickly it's kinda scary. Just last month i was loking forward to leaving, now i'm getting abit of cold feet. I haven't seen enough of my friends, haven't done enough with them, have't spent enough time with my family, i'm going to miss the preparations for my jie's wedding. It suddenly sucks. I haven't used my brain in such a long time, i don't know if i can throw myself back into the books, working seems so much a part of my life right now.

Besides, i can't bear to leave my girls, my clique, my family, i also can't bear to leave Mr Big. Sad is the truth yes? I'm like so totally going to miss my kopi sessions at Siglap, going to miss giggling with my clique, going to miss having yummy food with my family and going to miss everything about Big. Then again maybe my leaving could be the best thing that ever happened to him.

Now i sound as though i'm never coming back. Chey. No larh, just that i've never been very independant.

Know something, everyone around me is having babies. Know something else? They're all younger than me! I think someone is telling me... "DAWN! CAN YOU HEAR ME?! GET IT ON WITH YOUR LIFE! YOU'RE GOING NO WHERE! YOU HAVE NO LIFE, NO TIME, NO MONEY, NO BOYFRIEND, NO DEGREE AND SOON YOU'LL NOT HAVE A JOB!" It rings in my ears everyday. *shudder* What's with the baby boom anyway? What's the world coming to? What happened to chastity? Apparently, everyone left it in the gutter. Man, it's totally freaking me out larh. Like HELLO?! Am i like the only one of earth not getting any action? I'm like how sad larh?! SIAN.

Alrighty. It's back to work. Nat, did you check out the rates yet? I know you're very busy, but if you see me only once a month, you can only see me 3 more times! Haha. Let me know k?

Dennis, there are no cob webs now... and where in the world have you been? You've disappeared!

Jac..... talk to me girl.. talk to me!

To everyone else, "I'll be back."

Oh dear! Sorry for the lack of update. I've just been really really really busy with work. Now that i've been moved to the office, there is more responsibility to fulfill and it's taking it's toll on me. Been busy planning and preparing the launch of our flagship outlet at marina square this saturday. So it's really been nothing but lack of sleep. However, tired and stressed as it is, i'm pretty much enjoying my job, quite happy working. heh.

Through my tiredness, i can't deny that i've been thinking of Big. Okok... please don't throw rocks at me. I just miss him that's all. I kinda feel glad that nothing came out of us, cause i'll be thoroughly stressed that he's not here with me to walk by my side. At the same time, i wish that at the end of the day, when i'm beat tired, i will have his steady arms to fall into. I don't know, i'm leaving in 3 months, i guess he'll be more relieved.

Talking about leaving. 3 months is so going to fly by. I've just applied for my hostel, hopefully it'll be approved. Got to stay there for a year. Seems like a long time. You guys better come visit ok? Now perth can fly budget. =) Anyway, for those people who seldom meet up with me, if you see me once a month, you can only see me 3 more times before i leave. So *ahem* hint hint yarh? Haha. Okok. i know i'm the one that's been busy.

Alrighty. I really have to get back to work. In the office now. Lots to do. Talk again. Catch me on my mobile ok? I'll not be online so often. Miss me!