Uni starts tomorrow. Damn it. Save me from myself!

It's been a pretty good week since i've landed back in perth. The weather's been quite pleasant, a bit too wet for my liking, but it beats the heat anyday. I've not been doing much at all since i've gotten back. Just rolling around all day watching the shows i brought back from home. Plus, i've been sick, so it's really great that i have a week of spare time before uni starts. Spent all day today watching HK movie and cried heaps. It's been awhile since i cried so badly while watching a show. Kinda stupid, but if i cry like that, the show must be really good. Really enjoyed the shows. *nod* Yes yes. Need to spend less time watching tv and get a life, but i'm happy the way it is... it's prolly a bad thing, but i really have no desire/motivation to do anything else. Just a lazy bum. Like always.

Anyway, popped over to Elishia's house for dinner yesterday. I haven't seen that girl this year AT ALL. Not even by chance in uni! She's amazing that girl. She made us (morgan, tonya and myself) dinner all rom scratch! Chicken parmagama (sp?), boiled veggies, olive foccacia bread even scones and cream for dessert! EVERYTHING from scratch! Dinner was so yummilicious! All that effort too. I couldn't do all that. Don't have the patience. But yeh, i missed her. Those days in the hostel are so thoroughly treasured. Had lotsa fun and learnt heaps. Perth wouldn't be the same without my ex housemates. Love em all!

Uni is starting full swing next week. I've bought my books and they're sitting in the corner prolly feeling very unwelcomed. The sem hasn't even started and i cannot wait for it to be over!! Man do i truely dislike uni or what. Pffft. Going to be a full on sem again, just LOOKING at my unit outlines give me a headache. Not even going to bother reading them till sunday night. Guess it still boils down to my laziness. It's definitely a chronic dysfuction of my system, have it encoded in my DNA or something. *RAR*.

Ok. Will leave it as it is now. Get back to y'all soon! My chatter box has died, prolly from the lack of use. If anyone wants to help me fix it.. please let me know on msn or something! As you ALL know how retarded i am. Hee. Till next time! See ya!

It is about decent time to update i think. Seeing as the week has flown me by and i am leaving back to perth again on sunday. WHERE DOES THE TIME GO???!!! Even when i'm not sitting on my ass all day watching tv, time still just slips by! I much prefer bumming to being productive i must admit (another difference between jac and i). I think laziness runs through my blood... it's a chronic disorder.

Been quite a good week back in Singapore. Met up with people. Dr Chang, my ex boss, Esther, Beng, Fenn, Ling, Jac, Peiqi, Ken and family. Was all good. You really notice how quickly time passes when you see a baby develop. Ruichuan couldn't even lift his head the last time i saw him, now, he's HUGE!! He's only 8 months old and he's 11kg!! Can sit up by himself, eating semi-solids already. Even though i cringe everytime Fenny refers to me as "auntie Dawn" when she's talking to baby, i have come to accept the fact that at 22, it is an acceptable age to be addressed as auntie.

Meeting up with Dr Chang (together with fenn and esther) was thought provoking. Dr Chang and i have practically nothing to talk about really, i just text him occasionally. I like listening to him talk cause he's just so intelligent. Very "male" about things, but very interesting nonetheless. He's 35 now and he's just got a new girlfriend. He met her on an online dating wedsite. How weird is that?! he said, "i thought you guys would be more open... it it your generation after all." I don't know man.. i wouldn't want to meet my spouse through an online dating website (please God, do not make me go through such means). They're not even from/in the same country. It just strange larh. Anyway right, he brought up the Mr Big issue. *Bangs head on table* He just HAD to open the pandora's box. Was a very awkward conversation. Didn't know what to say. He reckons i'm being petty and stubborn and Big is scared of me. How typically male. Guess i am petty. But it's my perogative. I am finally at peace with myself and happy with my life and have gotten over myself (with regards to this issue).

Spent some time thinking about Big though. Not romantically, but platonically. Dr Chang thinks that it's silly of me to not be talking to Big. Thought about it... what is there to say? Nothing is going to make up for lost time. How can i speak to him like everything is ok. Don't expect me to look at him and smile? Looking at him now would only be a reflection of what i was when i was with him. I didn't like myself then at all and i don't want to see that side of me ever again. Sure. I miss him. I miss him heaps. How could i not. But i definitely do not feel the same way about him anymore. I NEVER thought i'd say this cause i always believed that friendship trumps all, but it's too hard for me to be around him. He made me feel so rotten about myself and didn't want any part of it... i cannot really be friends with some one who isn't loyal. Yes. I have issues. This is me.

Anyway... leaving that topic. Spent 4 days in HK with my sisters and dad. I think it's the 1st time we've been on a trip together (perth doesn't count as a trip). It was nice spending time together, even though i feel kinda stifled when dad is around. I'm not quite sure i like HK. There was lots of stuff and heaps of shopping, but not really my kind of stuff. The place is just too over populated for me. It's crowded all day everyday! Plus it's not very clean (sanitisation is definitely an issue). Didn't buy much.. but i did manage to get my hands on some Kame stuff that was selling rather cheaply, i was happy the whole trip after that. Hee hee hee. All in all, it was just nice to spend all that time with my sisters larh. Cannot wait till we go to Korea together at the end of the year! It's going to be so much fun!!

Only 4 more days at home. Then it's going to be another semester in perth before seeing the faces i miss so much again in december and 2008 will arrive. Man... life really doesn't wait for anyone ey. Time to grow up dawnie. Grow up and get over yourself!

God's grace is sufficient for me.

All the "training" i've had in front of the tv vegging out has definitely come to good use. The 5 hour flight home from perth was pretty painless. Was able to sit and just watch the in-flight entertainment from the start of the journey to the end. I am such a tv addict it is not funny. I think i can do it for the rest of my life. If only i can marry some rich man who doesn't care what i do and how i do it. Our living room will be designed in such a way that the fridge, tv and toilet will be in the zone of convenient reach. I will never have to move again. It'll be so great! Of course, life isn't a bed of roses. Prolly never marry a rich man, kinda have to give up that idea. Pfft.

Ok. I admit, ever since i discovered Kame, i haven't been watching much mainstream tv. Most of my energy i spend watching KAT-TUN (and Kame) related material (feel free to discriminate against me I am now used to it). It pains me greatly seeing how awful the clothes these blardy Japanese stylist make Kame wear. I cannot even watch my Kame in peace because the clothes that are on him are totally gross! I will not post pictures because i do not what people to further discriminate me. Also, they keep making his hair lighter and lighter in colour! It's so ugly! Why Kame, or the rest of KAT-TUN for that matter would agree to wear such disgusting outfits i will never understand. As a civilian, i wouldn't be caught dead in those outfits, why would such big time celebrities be willing to wear them and dance around in front of the camera?! I'm sure with all the money they make, the can afford to buy mirrors!Then again, maybe it's a japanese thing. As ugly as the outfits are, KUDOS to them for wearing it so confidently. I've always known japanese fashion to be unique... guess it's culture? Hmm.

Not that i am very fashion inclined, but i do think i can put together a decent outfit. I've had countless conversations with my jie and Sunita about this. I think i will make a better stylist that the person they have currently. The 1st thing i'd do is make every single one of them put on at least 5-10kg. They look malnourished! Female celebs can afford to look emaciated because according to the warped law of the world, the anorexic look for girls is now acceptable. For males in general to look emaciated is just SAD. Also, if they put on the weight, clothes will fit better and not look like it's hanging on a pole. They all look like beansprouts!! I don't know why they put Kame in white pants. His legs are like chopsticks and he has no butt to speak about. He totally looks like dental floss when they put him in white suits. Hate it.

Yes... it's just meaningless ranting. Oh well. Whatever said, as much as i disagree with how they manage (and market) Kame, i still like him. Which makes me more of a loser having said that. Haha. Ok dawn. GROW UP! Maybe tomorrow i will..... NOT. I think this blasted weather is screwing up my brains!! Sleep. Sleep is good. *nods*

In the end, IT'S FRIGGIN GREAT TO BE HOME! (We have new cabs and the ginormous scary looking ferris wheel thing!)

Woo Hoo!! This is finally the week i've been looking forward to for the past 6 months. I'm going home!!! The feeling of anticipation makes me restless at everything i do. Just can't sit still! Home is definitely where the heart is.

Well, Alvin and Vanessa have gone back home from their 1 week stay in Perth. I don't think they had a fun time, but i do think they were pretty comfortable. Haha. It was good having them over. Missed hanging out and chilling out with vanessa. I think we haven't hung out like that together since like sec 2. Was definitely good. Managed to spread the Kame love to vanessa. Hee hee hee. She now understands and she liked him enough to watch an entire Kame drama without screaming. So i guess that's a good thing. Muahahaha. Totally worth it.

Other than that, nothing much has happened or changed. Just looking forward to going home and seeing those who matter. CANNOT wait. Wee!!!!!!!!! *Squeals like guinea pig!* (I went to the wildlife park with Vin and Van and guinea pigs DO go "wee!!!!" Like how it says in my Olga da Polga book! Only my Jie will get this)

P.S: I love my new fridge magnet, it says, "God invented men because vibrators can't mow the lawn". MUAHAHAHA!!! Loves it.