Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I am such a shithead. Total and complete shithead. Completely deserve it for procrastinating and leaving things to the last minute.

He finally asked me to the movies with him and his mates today. I was looking forward to it ever since 2 weeks ago. But i turned him down. I couldn't go!!! I'm kicking myself for it, but i think it's the right decision. For starters, i've already watched the movie, second, i have a presentation tomorrow to prepare for and an anatomy test on thursday which i'm clueless about. So i won't be at peace with myself if i went anyway. But still... i would have so loved to have gone. Bugger.

You know, i've develop a mild form of stage fright. When i was in poly, i rocked when i was asked to do presentations. I could go in with nothing prepared and talk as though i knew my stuff and i wouldn't be nervous. But now, if i have to speak in front of people, or just in a classroom setting, i freak out and my brain turns to mush. I've prepared a powerpoint for tomorrow and written down a few points but i'm still feeling really insecure. Must pray for strength.

Oh oh oh oh oh!!! I've developed a thing for Hispanic guys. Diego Luna and Dante Basco more recently. They're just oozing sex appeal. Like Diego Luna is just gorgeous but Danta Basco has that arrogant cocky look... I don't know.. i just like. Haha. If you guys watch Take the Lead in the movies, Dante Basco plays the role of Ramos. Somehow at 1st glance, i thought he looked like WaiKit. Hee.

Haiz... ok. Back to the old drawing board. Please make this week go by quickly and less painfully... this is what you get for being a lazy shit.


Monday, May 29, 2006

I have decided that i'm the most complainsome part of myself when i'm studying and doing schoolwork. Like i'm totally fine when i'm out, or cooking, or eating, or watching tv, basically when i'm wasting my time away larh. But once i'm at my table surrounded by my books and notes, i start complaining. Incorrigable. How did i manage poly is still amazing. I seriously don't remember it being as tormenting as this. Then again it could be because my tolerance has decreased significantly. *shrugz* I'll get through. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. *nods*

Know arh, i'm quite scared to celebrate my birthday here. Somemore it's the 21st. Yeh, i know it's still very long away, but after the sabo session my cell group had for Kelwin.... i'm NEVER telling any person from church when my birthday is. It was Kelwin's 22nd birthday on Thursday and it was cell group day. They waxed his leg and arm hair can! Then we all signed on the bald patches. Haha. It was quite fun to watch larh.. but it's rewlly quite evil. The waxing one wasn't too bad. But then, this sneaky Adrian planned a "surprise" sabo. He forced kelwin to the corner and tied him up, and the guys carried kelwin out the the grass where Adrain sat on him to hold him down and water, flour and eggs were poured all over kelwin. That was hilarious, but it was also really mean!!! Considering Kelwin had no spare clothes with him (which is silly cause he knew he was going to get sabo-ed) plus it was soooooooooo cold that night! I think it was like 4 degrees or something. This Adrian also so bad! Don't see him shy shy... super naughty larh! Everntually, all the cell members got dirty cause Kelwin expressed his love by hugging all of us. See! Scary right... The initial plan was to tie him up and leave him on the freeway, but then he'd miss cell group. So cannot. BOYS.

Anyway, i'll be back in a couple of weeks... so please tag and lemme know what you want me to bring back for you. However, if you're a size 6 or 8 (which most of you are) please don't expect too much k... cause it's REWLLY hard to find those sizes. Unless you want kids? And shorts and tanks will be quite tricky too cause it's winterish, but i'll try, there are always some around. *nods*

Oh oh oh oh!!! Aileen will be taking her O levels in a couple of hours! Everyone, wish her the best ok! I remember my chinese O's period i think. I was studying with Nat, going through shou ce (you know that stupid book with all the words we had to learn) after shou ce from sec 1 to sec 4. Which is actually kinda useless cause there was like 10 tian xie han zi and like 5 zhao ju (sentence construction). I can't even remember how to write anything, even the basics also forget. That was like 5 years ago already. Then i remember i retook my chinese and Nat and I spent all that time in Sandra's club house studying. Had that kenneth saga. *ew* Remember not nat? Yeeeeee. I've digressed. My little sister's all grown up now... i never imagine her growing up larh.. 16 years old already, i still feel like she's 6. Then again, i think she'll always be 6 to me. So weird larh. Anyway... good luck Leeny!!! Kick ass girl!

Alrighty... i feel like i wanna blog more stuff but nothing has happened really. So i guess i'll hafta get back to my studying. SIAN. Or maybe i should go and sleep.

Hmmm... decisions.


Sunday, May 21, 2006

There's this "after assignment syndrome" that hits me harder than i would like it too. I've not done anything constructive since Friday when i submitted my last assignment. Since then, i've not moved from my sofa. Watching DVD after DVD, tv show after tv show. We even watched smallville in french. Oh. Worse. We watched Hayden's Cell Bio lecture on TV. Like how much lower can i stoop right?! I know i'm disgusting. I feel it too, but it's just such a liberating feeling.

Truth is, it really is nice just vegging out with the boys, not doing anything and slugging around. The best part of my day is just sitting around with the boys and watch tv really. So comfortable and familiar. Kinda feels like a home now, not so much like a flat you just come back to. Bonded really well with Sunita too. Especially now that Kelley's not here, i'm so glad that i still have someone to talk to. I'm even starting to rub off on the boys, they're starting to wash the dishes and tidy up the place and eat vegetables (imagine ME having to nag people to eat veg). It's all good. They even made cake all by themselves yesterday. All i did was to help them pre-heat the oven. Haha. So cute.

When you don't have assingments to do, everything just seems better. Mood is lighter, not so skeptical about things. Maybe that's why i prefer working, there's no "take home work". But i do think i'm happier now. Church is good, i have a great cell group, i have fantastic housemates, i'm getting pretty ok grades so far, i sleep well, there's someone to keep me entertained and knowing that i'm going home soon just rocks the core larh. Hee hee hee. Can't wait for all my yummy food!! Wanna walk down orchard road and drive to holland V for breko. Yay!

Jac should be home in Singapore soon. Like tomorrow i think. I haven't seen her in a year. Won't get too much time to meet her up when i'm back as well, then this Nat going all the way to Iowa for summer camp. Pang sai.

Anyway, it's Aileen's sweet 16 birthday tomorrow (22nd). Miss her lots. I hope this is the 1 and only birthday of hers i will miss. Leeny. Love you lots!! I hope you have a very happy 16th birthday. You deserve it. Hope you like your gift! Have fun.

Missing my Ching Chong Chus very very much.


Friday, May 19, 2006

Finished my assignments! ROCKS!!!!!!!!


Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Don't you hate the feeling where you feel as though you haven't slept? I'm feeling like that right this min. This feeling is totally not warranted cause i haven't been working that hard for my asssignments. Doing last minute nonsense again. I don't know why i'm just permanantly tired. In Singapore also like that, in Perth also like that.

Why do i always leave my work to do at the last min? I always tell myself not to do that cause i know i'll suffer the night before, but i just always always always still do it! Incorrigible. One assignment is due in 3 hours and another due in 2 days. I can't wait for this week to be over so that i can start complaining about next week. BAH!

The local news here has just reported that people have been attacked and robbed near my uni. Whee. Makes me feeel so secure man. Cannot go out after the sun sets to buy food anymore. Freaky!

ok. Back to assignment. ew.


Sunday, May 14, 2006

Kelley has officially moved out today. That sneaky girl... lucky i woke up early today and caught her in action. She was going to leave without even saying bye. Am really very sad that she left. I teared when i hugged her. I hate saying goodbye (even though it's not permanant). We've really bonded over the past months and we're close! Argh. Why can't we all just live in a happy healthy environment. This sucks.

Been really busy lately. Went for this gospel workshop over thursday and friday night. I only managed to go for thursday's cause i was late on friday and didn't manage to get it. It was jam packed to the door. It was really really really really good. I was really blessed by the message. Funny how God works. He chooses the weirdest times to speak to my heart. But i listened and i understood. I wish i could be a stonge christian, to speak in tongues and have that intimate relationship with God. Instead, i'm just lukewarm, not sure of gospel, not sure of truth, not sure of this and that. But i know in my heart i have faith, and God says if i have faith the size of a mustard seed, i can move mountains. Hopefully one day my mountain will move.

My MSN is cocked up. I don't know if it's my internet connection or my MSN settings or is it just me. It's so irritating, it totally doesn't connect properly and sometimes it just fails to connect altogether. Not that i use MSN very often now, no one talks to me on it. In fact, no one really talks to me now. But it's nice to have it on and working right. Pang sai. Tis very irritating.

Oh oh!! Hayden bought a huge ass LCD TV for our lounge. It's so darn big and clear! I wanna watch Prison Break on it man. Wentworth Miller must look even cuter on big screen! Hee hee hee. However, i'll be under house arrest this week. This week is my killer week, after which, everything will start winding down to exams. So I pray that God gives me strength and discipline to go through with it.

Alrighty then, i think i will have to go and find some food to eat. This whole eating thing is getting really annoying. I totally have no food to eat and nothing to buy cause everything is so boring. Then everytime eat the same thing, then eat already must wash. Sian or sian?

I need a man who can cook. (Maybe i've already met him?)


Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Guess who i met up with yesterday?!



Esther Tee Siow Wei!! I've missed her so much, i didn't realise until i heard her voice over the phone, and saw her pretty face. She flew to Perth for work (SQ stewardess) and was only here for a day. Glad that she made it a point to meet up with the few of her friends who are here. The comfort and familiarity that her presence brought was so warm and fuzzy. Miss all the times we used to go to simpang together just the inner square and ling. The drinking sessions we had at my poolside. The lectures we skipped to go shopping. All those mornings i picked her up for school. It seems so long ago now. Like we've moved in such separate directions. Like i was just thinking how Ling and I said we'd come together and have a cat and each other. But it's strange how things turn out. I'm glad she's happy at home with royston and i can only thank God he found her someone who loves her so much and she loves too. Just that i cannot help but feel how perfect this experience would be if i had someone familiar and someone i love to share it with.

Digressed. Anyway, Esther, Desmond (her ex bf) and Yan fen (poly mate) went out for dinner. It was a perfect night to be out, it wasn't too cold. Didn't do anything very exciting. Desmond drove us down to Freo for fish and chips! I was so happy and excited to get out of the house and eat food. I'm totally sick of my own cooking. Totally lazy to cook, so it was GREAT to go out and have someone to go out with. Went to Cicerellos. I think only perth has it. Anyway. We ordered lots! Oysters, Chilli Mussells, Seafood Cowder (rocks!), Sardines, Seafood Tray, Spicy crumbed and Traditional Fish and Chips. We almost managed to finish. Haha. It was just fantastic eating out with good company and non asian food for a change.



I'm not good with photos, but this is what we had. Esther stupid SIA red fingernails are so distracting man! So weird seeing her with nail polish. Can't imagine her in full make up. Cool.



Desmond, Esther and Royal Fatness. Ate too much. Couldn't help it. Real food! Haha.

No matter what. It was really really really really really great seeing Esther here in Perth. Thoroughly appreciated the meeting. Hee.

So who's coming next? Haha


Sunday, May 07, 2006



That's my beautiful friend Sheena. She'd be 21 like me this year. I miss her. I miss her smile, the shrill in her voice, her endless chatter, the warmth and sunshine she always brought with her. Gosh, i even miss her smoking.

Today's the 7th of May. It's been a year. Somehow it feels longer. I don't know why. I wish i was home to go visit her.

Sheena dearie, i love you and i miss you lots. Wish you were still here to share it all.


Friday, May 05, 2006

Things i wanna eat when i go home to sunny island Singapore:

1) An elaborate steamboat

2) An elaborate BBQ

3) Fish Soup at lucky plaza

4) Fish mee sua at suntec

5) BBQ chicken wings from 85

6) Stingray from Chomp Chomp

7) Char kway teow from Jalan Tua Kong

8) Calamari from Masayu

9) Prata from Simpang and Nat's house

10) Chili fish from defu

11) Teh bing and teh cino and teh o bing and milo bing

12) Chicken rice

13) Fried carrot cake

14) Otah

15) Sushi

16) Chippy from far east

17) Long John Silver

18) Hums

19) Iced Earl Grey from coffee club

20) Cabonara from Cartell

21) Fish n Co

22) Ba Zhang

23) Beef noodles

24) Bak Chor mee at Ling's place

25) You tiao, cuttlefish rojak

26) Turtle soup

27) Dim sum

28) Xiao Long Pao

29) Duck Rice

30) All of Linda's food

Ok. I've just made myself very hungry and very depressed. Haha. I really do wanna eat all those things. In fact i could eat them all right now!! I know you can get some of these stuff here. But it's NOT THE SAME. For starters, they cost twice as much.

7 more weeks... tahan......


Thursday, May 04, 2006

Having some trouble in my house.

Tension is building up. Kelley lodged a complain email about the noise. She's a highly strung individual and things really get to her. Like hayden put his TV in the lounge so that we all can watch tv together. But kelley's room is right beside the lounge so she hears the tv from her room. She's kinda an intolerant person. So she comes out of her room very often to ask hayden to turn it down. He does turn it down, but then cause really cannot hear, so he turns it back up and it bothers her ALOT. So she wrote a complain letter to the office and the manager came knocking on hayden's door today but he wasn't home, he was in uni. I'm appalled that she actually named hayden individaully. I thought it was so inappropriate even though i'm good friends with her. So now i'm staying out of it. I'm going to hide in my room when the drama happens. That's the problem living with other people.

The thing is, it doesn't bother me AT ALL. I mean Hayden has his irritating idiosyncracies, he's totally stubborn and spoilt, leaves his things all over the place, doesn't clean up after himself, leaves dirty dishes at the sink for DAYS, but it doens't bother me. I ask him nicely and he's do it, i'm firm with him, but he's alright. Sometimes i end up doing it for him, but that's ok. I don't know larh. Different characters i guess. Just hate all this tension. I'm a peace loving individual. Don't like conflicts.

Bah.