Monday, June 26, 2006

Home kinda isn't what i expected it to be. I thought that i'd be happy and appreciate it so much more but i'm not, and i don't. It's so weird. Like when i was in Perth, all i wanted to was to come home, but now that i'm home, it doesn't feel like how i thought it would. Maybe i had too many expectations, or maybe what i left behind is exactly the same. I don't know.

Well, the best part about being home is that i get to see and catch up with Jacjac. It's been way too long since we met and have a good conversation. I know i say this all the time, but it still amazes me how we can just pick up where we left off and talk till the cows come home. We can talk about anything and everything and somehow we just get each other. All the quirky expressions and facial contortions. It's so great. I love that girl to bits! I hate that she's going back already. I haven't even seen enough of her! Then again, i don't think i ever have. We watched our 1st movie in years together today. I cannot even remember when was our last movie together, i'm not even going to try and remember what movie it was. I wish she didn't have to go so soon.

Of course, seeing my family is great too. Miss my russell to bits!!! He's so skinny now, you cannot imagine. I liked him better when he was pudgy. Haha. Linda's cooking still rocks! And it's just lovely being with my sisters and just chilling out and talking rubbish. Hearing from friends who want to meet up just makes my day too!

What's not so great is the sickening weather. It's humid and gross but at least it's not too hot yet. I haven't even worn my jeans since i came home. Hot. Also, because of the horrible weather, i don't have the food cravings i've been having in perth. Which is kinda irritating cause there were so many things i wanted to eat before i came back. Then, the other sickening thing is that i'll be moving to Pasir ris on wednesday. Those who kept in contact with me will know where exactly and why, i can't be bothered to write it all here. So it's been packing and moving and a whole lot of grumpy and crankiness. Not from me, but from dad and sis mostly. Kinda don't like being at home, which is the same before i left. I don't know why. Like there's this repressed tension at home and it just sucks larh. Then, i haven't been able to sleep properly since i got home. Which is really weird cause you'd think i'd sleep better on my own bed right? But no leh, terrible, horrible sleep i've been getting. RAR!

I just hope things will get better when i move. Suddenly, going back to perth doesn't seem too bad. The grass is always greener on the other side huh.

No matter what, i'm just soooooooooo glad to be in the company of my Ching Chong Chus, beng beng, fenn, ling and roy. It wouldn't be home without em. Love you guys lots!!!

*smuackz* everyone! Lemme know if you wanna meet up, do something. Number is still da same. see ya later mates!


Sunday, June 18, 2006

This has possibly been the best week i've had so far in 2006. Having Ling and Royston here in perth, sharing alittle of my life here with them has been so fufilling. Like all this while i've been in perth, countless moments, i'd think to myself or say to Sunita, "i wish szeling was here". Sharing this experience with her is just so important and so great cause i really wanna include her in all aspects of my life. I want her to be part of it. Of course it would have been absolutely perfect if she had come during my holidays, or a non exam time, then we could have spent more time together, sitting on the couch watching tv and have her fall asleep halfway, or sit at some cafe and have endless chit chat sessions. Yeh, i know i'll be seeing her in another few days, but it's just different.

Thanks babe, i love you lots and i'm so happy that you came down to visit even though i didn't really have alot of time to spend with you. There's always next year right? Please tell Royston that i really enjoyed his company too and that i'm glad he came too. It wouldn't have been the same without him. You cannot even imagine how much i appreciate it and i only hope that i can be as important to you as you are to me.

Anyway, it's getting really cold around here. It dropped to -0.73 degrees this morning and was fluctuating around 2 degrees last night and it's the same tonight. At least tonight i'm all toasty in my house and not standing outside in the cold. Was supposed to get some studying done today but i just ended up not doing any. I wonder where my day went. I didn't get up late though.. hmm.

I woke up at like 12.30pm, then i spent some time talking to alvin online, deciding where to go and eat when i get back. Then i went to cook some lunch to eat and was watching smallville at the same time. Then dennis came over to chill at about 3pm and ended up watching smallville with me until like 5.30pm where he left to go to uni to study. Then i did the dishes (i would rather do dishes than study) and came back to my room to bathe and study. That didn't happen cause Wei Kee (neighbour) knocked on the door to look for sunita. But since sunita wasn't home yet, we ended up talking until like 9pm. Then i showered and was going to study. Then after my shower, jie called, so i was talking to her and aileen while sorting out the massive amount of laundry i have to do. After putting down, i was going to study, then i got hungry, so i went outside to get something to eat, and ended up watching arrested development with the boys until now. See. Everything just gets in the way of my study.

Another day of being worthless. Guess the best part of my day was Dennis coming over to chill. Miss chill time with dennis, we used to hang out so often. Hmm. *shrug* Oh well. Church tomorrow morning then i have to sit my fat ass down to study. *nods*

Australia vs Brazil tomorrow. I hope the boys won't be too disappointed when Australia loses.


Thursday, June 15, 2006

Don't understand the concept behind exams. It is a stupid form of assessment. Actually, so are assignments.

The weight they put on exams is way too heavy. 50% is ridiculous. When will you EVER use the information that comes out in exams in your daily lives? Like in my anatomy exam tomorrow. I don't see why we have to learn the various receptor pathways in the body. Like when EVER will someone in real life ask you at explain it. If i was a studying to be a doctor, fine. I'd prolly need to know it, but i'm studying to be an OT larh. Why do i even need to know it? It's not ever going to be relavant to anything i'll be doing. Then there's this whole thing about muscles too. When ever in my life would i be so free to stand around and identifying the various muscles in the body and explaining their individual points of origin and action. Completely pointless ain't it?

I reckon, they should abolish exams in uni altogether. Instead, something more effective like clinical placements should take it's place. Like instead of testing us on paper, test us in real life. I mean that's what we're being trained for anyway. I mean so what if we like get 100% for our exam and then screw up in our job. Who's going to care if you can name all the nerves in the body when you've killed someone. Right not. Getting 100% in exams doesn't mean you know what you're doing, it just means you know how to study. So? Studying is not going to teach you life skills. Studying is not going to ensure you get a job. Knowing the anatomy of the body is not going make me a good OT. What's the point?

Yeh, i'm saying this now because i'm miserable about my anatomy exam tomorrow. I don't know what or how to study for it anymore. I just hope to pass. Not asking for much. Really agonizing because of it. Please pray for me. I need strength and perserverance and brain mass. Hope it works out tomorrow.

I hate muscles.


Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Australia won against Japan in the World Cup!! I cannot believe it.


Saturday, June 10, 2006

One of the things i love about my babe szeling is that she knows EXACTLY when i need her, and by some miraculous force, she'll give me a huge surprise and make me feel all better.

Today, she turned up at my door step.

You see, if this was Singapore, i'd already be very shocked and happy that i have such an amazing friend. But this is just tooooo touching for words. The joy that filled my heart when i saw her is simply indescribable.

Szeling rang me at about 10-ish this morning and asked me to open the door. I groggily stumbled out of bed and opened the door, to be met by her and royston and his mum! I was so shocked i forgot even to hug her. Totally and utterly lost for words. Couldn't believe it was real. My best friend standing at my doorway in PERTH! I wasn't even embarressed that i was in my flannel pajamas.

Even till now, i keep thinking that i'm dreaming. God is just simply too good to me. Granted that it is exam period. I'm studying. Don't worry, i'll be fine. I know what i'm doing.

I've missed her sooo much. It's so great that when we went out, it feels as though nothing has changed. Like we've only not seen each other in 5 days and not 5 months. We talk about the same things and talk in the same way and it's sooooooo fantastic just having her here, and royston too! Yay yay yay!!! Jubilee would be me right now.

They're coming over for dinner in awhile. Going to cook some stuff for them. Nothing fancy, but it's nice cooking for the people you love. I'm estatic that they're going to be meeting the boys, and they met sunita this morning. Just happy that they're going to be part of my life in perth too. Hee. =D

What can i say, God is good. Life is good. Good friends, good flatmates. Icing on the cake would be good results. But i can do without icing. I'm not that greedy. Haha.

YAY!!!!


Thursday, June 08, 2006

I have a friend. I feel like i owe this to him, for the many things i've never said, for the many things that i didn't do, for the many times i could give enough.

This friend is probably the only guy who is constant through the many years. Never once he left my side. We shared times so close there wasn't a day that would pass without hearing from him. We experienced times so distant that we'd go for months without talking. In times of happiness, he was always there to share my joy, no matter how much he disapproves of the reason. When my heart was broken, i'd run to him, disheveled and weary. He has never turned me away. Always seated my me, patiently, lovingly, caringly drying my tears while trying to tape my heart back.

This friend has always protected me, he sees my fragile side even though i try to be strong. Never fails to pay me a compliment, but can always be trusted to tell the brutal truth. A shadow he may seem, never demanding my attention, content with protecting me from the side. He doesn't know that i notice. He doesn't know that i appreciate it, he doesn't know how much i appreciate him.

This friend puts me in such high esteem, i feel ashamed for the lousy friend i am to him. He puts up with my childish tantrums. He understands my need to be treated like a lady. He knows the real me. He sees the essence of my character and he loves me for it. Not once has he picked on my habits and my traits. He has accepted me as a whole.

This friend is the only guy i feel totally myself with. I throw my tantrums and my attitudes at him because i know he won't judge me. I become a childish teenager when i'm with him and he doesn't mind cause he's knew me as one. This friend is one that i love dearly, as much as i don't say and express it at all. I can only imagine how rotten i make him feel when i neglect him. This friend is one that i will treasure forever. This friend is one that i will never let slip by. This friend is one whose happiness i will fight for. This friend is one i have never said nice things too. This friend is one i always take for granted. This friend is one who has always forgiven me for not being there. This friend is one who thinks of me no matter how circumstances change. This friend is what ever girl needs. This friend is so precious i wish i had done more for him.

I am sorry my friend, i should have said this to you many many years ago.

This friend is Alvin.

Thanks Vin. You now know how much you mean to me and i hope you'll never doubt it. Love you lots.


Wednesday, June 07, 2006

The joy of just spending a day out of the house is so excellent. It just rejuvinates me and charged me up. Funny how i can manage to wake up early to go shopping, but cannot wake up early to do anything else. I'm worthless larh. Seriously.

Early morning i took to bus with Sunita to go to the city for some shopping. Myer was having sale, so i decided to go and buy some stuff. Wanted to buy a pair of boots cause my legs get so cold sometimes! As i was walking around, i ended up buying 2 sweaters and underwear and a pair of sunnies. I don't know about you but i think shopping is very intellectually stimulating. Haha. I didn't manage to find my boots at 1st but i did in the end. They're brown and almost knee high and suede. I love it! The best part is they only cost $90. I know is still expensive but for a pair of boots, it's really very reasonable. *nods*

Oh! Then right then right, met up with kelley for lunch. It was sooooooo good seeing her. Missed her so darn much. It's just totally not the same without her. It's just then when we go and eat stuff, it gets abit tricky cause she's vegetarian and i am rather carnivorous. But we make do larh. I'll be really really sad when she goes back to texas next year and Sunita goes back to Singapore next year too. Then i will officially have no friend. Depend on the boys... as good as waiting for it to snow in Singapore. Pui.

Sunita dragged me to the Independent Living Centre in Perth. It's some OT stuff larh. I had actually wanted to go home and sleep, but she dragged me along, so i went. It's this place where they teach you about the different types of adaptive equipment to assist independent living. It's seriously quite amazing stuff. Like a car can be modified such that it has no foot breaks, only hand breaks, so that people who have a disability of the lower limbs can drive. Homes and toilets can be modified so effectively. Even wheelchairs can be adaptive. It's fantastic stuff. I wish Singapore had this kind of centre for people. The people with some disability will be able to become independent again. I think Singapore needs to give more exposure to occupational therapy, people underestimate occupational therapy.

Anyway, people, if there's anything you want me to bring back, please please please tag or mail me to tell me cause i don't think i'll have the time to go and look for stuff. Exams start next week and straight after, i'll be going home already. So please please please let me know ok.

Alrighty, i better go now, got to study for monday's paper... it's been soooo long. Feels funny having exams again. Remember the cold tut rooms in poly.. yee. Ok.. study study study!


Sunday, June 04, 2006

Sorry it's been awhile. Has been a really rushed week for me. I don't know why they had to pack everything to the last week of school. No point lamenting now, i'm just glad that this sem is officially over and that i will be home in a matter of days now. Hee hee. 17 days to be exact. Yay!

How's everyone at home? I hope things are going good. People still happily attached and people working still earning a fair income. I wish i could fly home right now and have a good chat. =)

Anyway, i haven't really accomplished anything in the week that just passed. I had a psychology test on monday which i passed, had an oral presentation on wednesday which i passed as well and then on thursday i had a lousy anatomy test which i am going to fail really disgracefully. Part of it cause i didn't manage to study well and another reason cause it was just so darn difficult!!!! I mean try learning all the bones in the body plus all the joints plus all the muscles and tendons. I'd bet you'd be going nuts too. By the way, the skull is not just made of 1 bone ok, there are at least 20 bones in the skull. Yeh, so i'm hoping to get some work done this week. *nods*

I wish i had some photos to post and show you guys, but i don't have. Haven't gone anywhere exciting or done anything fun. Just to and fro uni as usual. Even church is in uni. Haha. But i really enjoy my church service, even though i sometimes wish it didn;t start so early in the morning. It's difficult to wake up and it's now also really cold to walk to school. I shall try and be more happening next semester, even though chances are slim. Poor OT students like me just have no life cause workload is so darn heavy. Should organise my time better. See larh. Back to the "shudda wouldda couldda". Every new start i say the same thing and never follow through. Tsk.

Hmm.. i think i will have to walk to blockbuster now and return my DVDs and possibly buy some dinner food. Lazy to cook. Shall go see if i can coerce brad into walking with me. He's really zai. He stays in his room ALL day studying. He's not the last minute sort. SO cool man. If only i had an ounce of discipline. Bah.

Ok. Till next time!

P.S: Szeling, i watched TV from 3pm till 12am yesterday non-stop. Haha.